its really here.
my last night in Kentucky before my move to NYC. Tomorrow night I'll actually be homeless as I crash in Bethlehem, PA for the night before heading the rest of the way to NYC on Friday morning. i can't believe it has finally arrived.
this week has been a fun/busy week. it started with lunch with an old college professor and her daughters, who i babysit from time to time. it was actually fitting that i had a chance to sit down with them before i left. dr. hetzel is the reason that i became a teacher to begin with in the first place. she, ever so lovingly stated to me at the end of nearly every class period that perhaps i should be a teacher, which i shrugged off, only to find myself becoming...well...a teacher. there are no mistakes or coincidences within our lives. i have learned, far too many times, that we are where we are for a VERY specific reasons, and sometimes God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers, or prayers answered somehow other than the way we thought they would be answered. then it was off to dinner dinner with logan and deata...who i have known pretty much my entire life. it was sad to say goodbye to them, but i know for CERTAIN, they will be visiting soon. it was then followed by final trivia (part deux) which did not involve any plastic boots or any "cheaters" but instead found us earning only 18/40 points. on a positive note, thanks to my "coaxing" another person in our party did go home with a door prize. finally, last night, it was dinner with a few friends and my parents at joe b.'s. i will miss the breadsticks most of all :) then, the packing of the trailer...a few tears over things i would have to leave behind, and now, here i sit. everything packed up into a trailer and a car except the clothes i will wear for the next few days and the one dog who will be making the trip to me.
and finally.
i'm actually scared.
i have dreamt of this moment for most of my adult life. i sent out resume after resume. interviewed for job after job and finally...FINALLY...it's here. the next blog i send will be from a kentucky girl in nyc. and im scared it wont be everything i dreamed. or maybe it will be more. or maybe ill have no friends. or maybe ill meet a million awesome friends. or maybe roxie will hate not having a backyard to run in. or maybe ill hate not having a target to go to. or maybe they won't televise the casey anthony trial.
all completely irrational worries i have. and i take a deep breath. and i know, i KNOW, things will work out. god has not only laid this path in front of me, but put 15 spotlights on it, and glitter on the ground and said...hey...if it wasn't obvious, this is the path i want you to take. every last thing has fallen into place, though it seemed it might not, it did. and i know it was the design and the plan all along. and i know that god wouldn't put it out there for me if he didn't intend on seeing me through. but that irrational part of me sinks into my gut and i want to puke. but i wont. because i know loads of people would give their left foot for the opportunities i have been given.
so, i guess...if you are the praying kind...keep me in your prayers. and if you are the karmaic universe kind, ask the universe to send positive karmaic vibes my way. and if you aren't either of these...just think happy thoughts for me.
for those of you who have been part of this last chapter of my life, i thank you from the depths of my soul and the bottom of my heart. i wouldn't be here right now if it weren't for each one of you. i love you dearly and i will take a piece of each of you forward with me to the big apple, and you'll be the first ones i call when i get home at thanksgiving.
but now it is time. this chapter has gone on too long, and i think it is time to turn the page. be watching for a new chapter...coming soon.
the end.
akygirlgonenyc.
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